Hellish month...

March is suppose to be THE MONTH for me...
March is suppose to be THE LUCKIEST MONTH for me...
March is MY FAVOURITE MONTH...

...but from the 1st March,it has not been any of the mentioned above...
...so far,it has been a hellish month for me...
...and i can't decide whether i hate March or not...

...and i feel so much like crying but i can't...
...the tears just won't come out...
...i just laugh and laugh and laugh like a mad woman...
...maybe i am mad?
...i dunno...
...can u tell me?

...shit,shit,shit...
...i feel like crying rite now...
...i can't cry...
...i'm a strong person...
...fuck!fuck!fuck!
...i am strong...
...i won't cry...
...i can't cry...
.................................i just wanna die..........................
...ok,that's smart...
...gerenti pasni kene marah ngan wani...
...hehehehe...