is it me, or...

...it's just that I'm getting older? I mean, Aidilfitri is not so far away now but I could not work up any excitement whatsoever. And in my case, it's freaking weird. Before this, I would always get ecited about Aidilfitri. The whole balik kampung and family get-together thing would always cheer me up, making me feel so excited about Aidilfitri. But this year? I feel kinda... nothing.

No, no. Don't get me wrong. The prospect of balik kampung and the family get-together are still appealing. Enticing even. I'm all for it. Can't hardly wait. But it feels like the excitement kinda dimmed a bit. I wonder why? Even the Raya songs are not working its magic just like it used to. Am I getting a bit too old? Sheesh!

Maybe the feeling will come soon. Maybe I'm just kinda too immersed with my work. Or maybe it is due to this unstability we are currently facing in our country. Who knows. Even in Ramadhan you could not have some peace. This war of words and political drama is getting kinda lame, annoying and irritating to me. It makes me sick to my stomach to have to witness all of these craps. Whatever happened to this country, I have no idea.

Balik kampung is the only break I have from my work. I'm looking forward to it. Lets just hope we could have a peaceful Aidilfitri, shall we?

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That's the cheeky smile I've been looking for!
My little angel...